Writing a book is harder than I thought. I have so many ideas in my head and I am juggling priorities. Time ... there is never enough.
When I took this photograph, I thought I looked pretty. Now I can see how gaunt I looked. I took this months into my illness when I was blind to my actions and how they were affecting my family. At the time, I was consumed with my stress and my pain. Living with a chronic illness is not easy - daily pain eats away at your patience and makes you frustrated and angry and hopeless. I don't know how people go through something like this without faith in God.
Phillipians 4:13 For I can do everything through Christ,
who gives me strength(NLT).
As I write this, I am getting ready for a job interview. Due to a large company reorganization, my current position is gone and I am "reassignable." I am trying to find a job I want before they hand me my new assignment as I would like some say in where I land. I am thankful that I was not surplussed and I know that I am in God's very capable hands. He has always been in control of my career and while I am nervous about the position (it's not the one I have my heart set on), I am going to trust in Him. He has never steered me wrong.
That's the awesome thing about God - He wants the best for me so even if this new position is designed to teach me something, it's a lesson from God - who loves me more than I can imagine - and I can TRUST Him. This goes for you, too. If you are struggling, stop messing around and give it up to God. Trust in Him and his goodness. He has a plan for your life (Jeremiah 29:11) and it's a good one.
If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me. I will be found by you, says the Lord. I will end your captivity and restore your fortunes.
Jeremiah 29:13-14 (NLT)
So whether it be an illness or a job change, I trust God with my life. After all, he gave it to me in the first place.
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